So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.-Romans 8:1 (NLT)

The past several months and even recently as last night, I really had to believe this scripture as the truth! You see, I battle against a terrible anger temper. The Holy Spirit has truly worked a remarkable progress within me so that now I can have victory over my weakness majority of the time. Most people can not ever imagine me exploding in anger. But my immediate family has seen me explode. I feel awful whenever I explode this way. There are times I get so mad at my husband that I just throw aside all my self-control and everything that I’ve learned the past four years from the bible and the Holy Spirit. 

From my numerous experiences of setbacks and failures, as well as comebacks and successes; I can tell you one thing for sure. God is faithful. As long as I go to Him in prayer with a broken and contrite heart seeking forgiveness and for His help and strength; Jesus is always there to comfort and replenish me. Sometimes I’m so downcast that I can’t formulate many words in my prayer but simply repeat, “S.O.S. Help me. S.O.S. Help me.” 

I believe our Abba Father can not turn away from such prayers. He acts immediately to rescue his children calling out from emergency. All day today I sensed the Lord’s presence strongly with me. To show me that I’m still approved by Him to serve others, I had an encounter with a friend. I was able to help her college-bound son connect with an older Christian young man attending the same college. She said she was praying much that her son would get connected to a church and good group right away. I was part of my friend’s answered prayer! I always love helping young people stay in the path of God. Being used this way blessed me as much as my friend. God even sent two other people to contact me to encourage me! It was so random and yet so orchestrated by a loving Abba who heard my ‘S.O.S. Help me.’

My husband was kinder, gentler and exceptionally caring to me today too! My kids got along so well too! Moreover, I have time alone tonight as my kids and husband are out for soccer practices so that I can write this for you. 

I just finished reading the book, “Gifted Hands” by Ben Carson. It’s an excellent book. He struggled with great anger and rage like me. One day as a teen, he wrestled with God on this issue until he received peace. From that day on, he no longer had an anger problem. He was set free, just like that! I wish my deliverance is that easy and swift. For me, I really had to and still do depend heavily on the Lord to keep me. I don’t know why Ben Carson’s deliverance was so instant while mine is a progress. However I have come to depend on the word of God as truth despite my setbacks and failures. I have experienced numerous grace and comfort of Jesus when I fall. I find that when I fall, I fall deeply into my loving Savior’s arms as I experience His love and grace. Also, just like learning how to walk, I fall less and less every year. 

Friends, when you slip and fall because of your personal weakness, please know that Jesus loves you very much and He will pursue you with only love, comfort and grace; never condemnation. Therefore, run to Him. This has been my testimony the past four years. Jesus is faithful, compassionate and good. I’ll be praying for you. Please pray for me too. Thank you! God bless you! – From the heart with love. 

1 Corinthians 15:57 (NLT)
57 But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.

1 Thessalonians 5:23-24 (AMP)
23 And may the God of peace Himself sanctify you through and through [separate you from profane things, make you pure and wholly consecrated to God]; and may your spirit and soul and body be preserved sound and complete [and found] blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ (the Messiah).
24 Faithful is He Who is calling you [to Himself] and utterly trustworthy, and He will also do it [fulfill His call by hallowing and keeping you].

Psalm 51:17 (AMP)

17 My sacrifice [the sacrifice acceptable] to God is a broken spirit; a broken and a contrite heart [broken down with sorrow for sin and humbly and thoroughly penitent], such, O God, You will not despise.