I was powerfully touched (actually ‘electrified’ is the better verb) by the Spirit of God in a teen church retreat where I also accepted salvation through Jesus Christ. There was even an exorcism experience.* I believe I was 13.  After such powerful experience you can not help but desire to seek God with all of your heart, mind and soul. My sister and I were faithfully attending church even without our parents going with us for couple of years. 

I don’t remember which church friend loaned us their ‘Ouija’ game board for the week. This game board answers your questions about the future. A piece moves by itself to answers on the board as you lay your fingers on it. My sister and I were so fascinated by this piece moving all by itself and we played late into the night once my parents went to bed. We asked the usual teen questions such as ‘when are we getting married’, ‘are we going to be rich’, ‘how many kids are we having’, ‘who likes me’, etc. 

It was an innocent and stupid thing to accept and play this board game. I had no idea that playing this game would open up a host of demonic doors into my life. Soon after my sister and I lost interest in pursuing God or attending church. We stopped going and I was very sad when no one from church called us even once. Soon the eating disorder and severe depression with suicidal thoughts overcame me. As debilitating as I felt inside I kept up my grades and so my parents didn’t know of my great turmoil. I also believe the Lord didn’t open their eyes to my severe condition because they weren’t able to assist Him. They probably would’ve made it worse. 

As much as I wanted to end my life I was too chicken to. But the heaviness was getting so bad that I barely could take it anymore. I was starting to get over my chicken-ness and contemplating how to end my life. I was down in the darkest and deepest pit when the familiar voices revealed themselves to me. They introduced themselves as what they are – demons. I started conversing with demons, thinking them as friends. They shared with me their side of the story of their fall from heaven; their views of God and Jesus, the cross. I sympathized with them. They shared with me their plans to prepare for a big showdown against the Church. They wanted my participation with promises for my loyalty and cooperation. They are preparing for the end of times. 

Modern psychology may call my experience as ‘manic depression’ or ‘grandiose grandeur’ or something more intricately classified. Well, it’s a good thing my family didn’t realize what was happening within me. Can you imagine what would’ve happened if I opened up to a psychologist? I’d be in a state mental institution! 

After a year or so of conversing with demons I came to realize that they were very evil. I wanted no part of their wickedness or evil plans. I wish I knew that our God is loving, forgiving, full of compassion and mercy. I did not know that I could turn back to him. I would have if I had known this truth about our God.

Once I’ve decided that I can not be part of their evil scheming, the demons turned against me. They tormented me with their ugliness and threats. I remember one time I could no longer take their attacks; I’ve had it; I was pushed beyond my fears. I did not want to hear from them or see them or feel them. I commanded them to no longer be in my life or else that I will go back to God. And just like that their voices, faces and touches stopped. I was so shocked that this threat worked! I didn’t ask how, why, what. I just turned away and ran for my life. I’ve been avoiding and hiding from all things supernatural ever since…until recently. 

The Lord has been speaking to my heart about taking authority over demonic activities through His name. Jesus has done a lot more than I currently know on the cross. He has been given all authority in heaven and on earth. Furthermore, Jesus gives to us, his believers and disciples, the same authority and power. 

I feel like I’m starting a new class in God’s school. Please pray for me that I can understand what the Holy Spirit desires to teach me on this matter. As I’m entering a classroom of a topic I’m not comfortable with due to my past, the Holy Spirit comforted me with this message, “Fear Less.” I smiled. It seems doable. Thank you so much for your prayers and support. I’ll be praying for you too. 

(D – God bless you abundantly for being firm with the school about not allowing the Ouija board game from coming into your daughter’s classroom at Halloween. You have no idea what evils you saved your daughter and her classmates from. God bless you for your courage!)

*Jesus spoke the truth about this spiritual principle:

Luke 11:24-26

24 “When an evil spirit leaves a person, it goes into the desert, searching for rest. But when it finds none, it says, ‘I will return to the person I came from.’ 25 So it returns and finds that its former home is all swept and in order. 26 Then the spirit finds seven other spirits more evil than itself, and they all enter the person and live there. And so that person is worse off than before.”

*Praise God for these spiritual truths!!

Matthew 28:18-20 (NLT)
18 Jesus came and told his disciples, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. 19 Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. 20 Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

*I was lead to these verses about Satan and have been pondering this message:

Isaiah 14:12-17 (ESV)
“How you are fallen from heaven,
O Day Star, son of Dawn!
How you are cut down to the ground,
you who laid the nations low!
You said in your heart,
‘I will ascend to heaven;
above the stars of God
I will set my throne on high;
I will sit on the mount of assembly
in the far reaches of the north;
I will ascend above the heights of the clouds;
I will make myself like the Most High.’
But you are brought down to Sheol,
to the far reaches of the pit.
Those who see you will stare at you
and ponder over you:
‘Is this the man who made the earth tremble, who shook kingdoms, who made the world like a desert and overthrew its cities, who did not let his prisoners go home?’

*Another supporting message the Holy Spirit brought to my memory several days later: 

Luke 10:17-20 (AMP)

17 The seventy returned with joy, saying, “Lord, even the demons are subject to us in Your name.” 18 He said to them, “I watched Satan fall from heaven like [a flash of] lightning. 19 Listen carefully: I have given you authority [that you now possess] to tread on serpents and scorpions, and [the ability to exercise authority] over all the power of the enemy (Satan); and nothing will [in any way] harm you. 20 Nevertheless do not rejoice at this, that the spirits are subject to you, but rejoice that your names are recorded in heaven.”