The past couple of weeks I’ve been feeling “anemic” or lacking a certain vital food group in my spiritual diet. I just didn’t understand what I was missing since nothing new or different has happened, and so during our weekly prayer time after bible study, I asked my co-leader to pray for me. I don’t believe in hiding my spiritual state especially from another believer that I’m united together for God’s work. 

It’s amazing how quickly the light shined into my confusion after I was prayed for. Another very important evidence to why believers need to meet together on a regular basis and pray for each other. 

The very next morning as I was in a crowded train to NYC, the story of Elijah being fed by the ravens and then the widowed woman came out of nowhere from within me. Thank you God for Google and the Internet! I quickly found the story in 1 Kings 17 and read it carefully. In this story, eventually the ravens and the brook stopped nourishing Elijah because God wanted him to move on. His next nourishment was to come from the widowed woman in a different location. Elijah was not only fed by her, but he was also sent to save the woman and her son from starvation. As I was contemplating Elijah’s story, later in the afternoon in my return train back, this statement of Jesus popped into my head.
John 4:34

Jesus said to them, “My food is to do the will of Him who sent Me, and to finish His work.”

“Aha” moment! My nourishment is not only the word of God, intimate relationship with the Holy Trinity, fellowship and praying with other believers, but it also comes from “doing the will of God and His work!” My heart leaped when this revelation came to me!

Couple of months ago at church, the Holy Spirit showed me the many women around us who are very desperate and hanging on by a thread. Because of my daughter’s bat mitzvah coming up I put this vision on the shelf temporarily. Well, honestly I put this completely aside because it’s so easy to forget. But the Lord didn’t forget and He got my attention because I felt my nourishment drying up at our bible study group. I’ve been with the Wednesday group for two and half years and always felt nourished no matter who lead the studies or what topics we studied. Therefore I was so perplexed but it led me to seek the Lord on my malnutrition!

I believe the Lord wants me to pursue and establish a woman’s prayer group that’s open to all within the church. If a former member didn’t obey and set up her public prayer group over five years ago at my church, I would surely have died on my faith at my third attempt. There were too many huge battles to face alone and I didn’t know many Christians. Perhaps there’s other women that God is drawing now and they need a safe place to pray and build up on their faith too. Because their faith is life or death, like me they will cling onto and read the bible fervently on their own. In depth bible studies will come later on when there’s more peace in their lives.

Please pray for my new calling. If this is God’s perfect will then all things will fall into place. I set up a meeting with the church adult ministry director this week to discuss with her my vision. I’ve already told my co-leader and have her support too. Thank you so much for your support and prayers! In His grace and love…