I used to share with my Christian friends about the revelations that God was giving me – because I had to tell somebody. 🙂 Praise God that they read my long stories and celebrated with me. Praise God that my circumstances isolated me so that I had to write down my stories versus share in person. Recently I felt I should go back and read my old writings. Praise God that they were saved. Here’s an old writing from July 2012. May this old revelation bless you!Hi ladies! I had such a revelation this morning while I was praying that I wanted to share with you – even if you know this, it is “big, new” news to me! 🙂

Several months ago at the five dollar store (it’s a great store to check out), I bought this movie called “The Nativity Story”. The movie is about the lives of Joseph and Mary. The movie came out in 2007 and Keisha Castel-Hughes plays Mary if you want to see it. I was holding onto it and waiting for time alone to watch it. My husband is away right now so last night was perfect timing. (even the christian radio had christmas songs day yesterday and that is how I remembered I had this movie)

I think the movie did a great job of showing lives of Mary and Joseph, and what they went through. They were simple, kind, young people who trusted their lives and reputation to God. Mary, who was a very good girl, gave up her reputation to become pregnant before wedlock! Back then, that was sooooo shameful and she could’ve been stoned to death when she came back home from staying with her cousin, Elizabeth. The movie did a good job of showing how difficult it was for her to come back home, big and pregnant. Mary accepted God’s mission for her life and gave up her life of security. She was suppose to marry Joseph who was a hard-working and a ‘good catch of a husband’. Even when the villagers scorned her and avoided her, she didn’t lose hope in God. She didn’t run away from the village and their cold looks. She stood firm until God worked behind the scenes and revealed to Joseph to stand by her and marry her. And of course, you know the end of this story…Joseph, the “good catch of a husband” stood by her side and honored her with marriage and security.

As I was thinking of her story going to bed, I thought of God who asked me to give up my dream of becoming a college professor. I obeyed him but it was out of fear than out of love. I was basically a fearful slave to God. I didn’t believe God in his true character like Mary did. Obedience out of fear only goes so far in our walk with God. When I came home, I fell apart from comments and looks by my mom that ‘I studied hard for a wrong career’. My family thought I gave up a professor career because I couldn’t do it or didn’t want to study anymore. It was brutally hard to let them think this. I couldn’t tell them the truth like Mary did to her parents, because I was ashamed and fearful of the God I was serving.

This morning as I was praying, these words clearly was heard inside my head – “Why would God rob you?!” I once believed God robbed me of a wonderful career and future. But seeing this movie showed how God did not rob Mary of anything at all! God blessed her with a ‘good catch of a husband’, security, honor, and the most lavish gift possible – a baby Messiah to humanity!!!

Yesterday, I needed to break a $20. I went into my son’s wallet to look for change. I only found two fives. I placed my $20 into his wallet because I didn’t want to forget to put the $10 back in his wallet. I doubled his wallet money because I didn’t want to rob him of any money by accident. As his mom, I will never rob him instead I will give him all I’ve got.

These series of things happened to me last 24 hours and I am overwhelmed with this new revelation – “Why would God rob you?!” He will never, ever rob me of anything good. I hope, like Mary, we can all sacrifice ourselves to God completely and stand firm in his character; and believe that he really rewards those who seek him and does his will. I am grateful to the Holy Spirit to finally putting peace in my heart about this. I won’t look back anymore with “what ifs” but will look forward to what God has for me. 🙂 It’s all good.

Take care and I hope my revelation inspires you today, even if you know this already.

5/27/2016
Right after I posted this old story, this verse popped out at me. I realize now that we must follow Jesus out of love, not fear. I tried very hard for five years as a young adult. Fear doesn’t work.

1 Corinthians 16:14
Do everything in love.