This past Thursday was incredibly difficult day. Evan’s illnesses were still going on and not only that I felt a hard compression on my chest all day. My fears and thoughts were going to dark places. All my news information about the coronavirus flooded into my mind. Weather didn’t help as it was cloudy, windy and rainy all day long. Holy Spirit knew this storm was coming on Thursday and so he prepared that I have good, experienced reinforcement.

The day before Holy Spirit worked it out so that a very mature woman of faith, Lydia asked for our prayers through text message for her shoulder pain. Knowing that praying in person is more powerful and effective than praying alone I called her to pray for her. Instead she blessed me more with her prayers for me and my family. When I prayed, the Bible verses from Psalm 103:13-14 came up to comfort me. – “As a father pities his children, So the Lord pities those who fear Him. For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust.” And even our church bible reading on that very day was on Psalm 103! Double confirmation!! Praise God!(BTW, we met at our children’s school during school photo day. She was volunteering for her grandson. I told her about our women’s prayer group at my church and she’d come regularly. The Lord used us to help her in her intense battle three years ago when her daughter was addicted to drugs. Her daughter today is drug-free and enrolled in college to become a counselor. It’s an incredible “Look what the Lord has done” miracle story!)

Lydia called me again on Thursday morning after breakfast, and boy did I cry when she asked me how I was doing. I said sobbing “it’s really hard.” She listened and prayed for me strengthening my faith. When she was praying for me I saw in my mind the footprint poem about Jesus carrying us during difficult times, and I saw Jesus carrying me! I cried harder.

I went into my prayer room late morning, and during prayer I saw darkness trying to wrap itself around my lungs. When I saw that vision, I prayed with my gift of tongue. I don’t know what I was praying about but this prayer gift took over my mouth with authority and great force. Thank God because I was very scared.

Day before I also started a sermon series from Liquid Church about the Holy Spirit. I knew that I needed to fill my mind with thoughts from God all day long or else the enemy will throw his arrows and spears at my mind. This sermon series was a great way to distract myself from the physical compression I felt on my chest. As I was contemplating telling my husband about what’s happening to me, I felt that I should wait until end of the day. He’s work kept him very busy and he was in his office all day. Other than checking upon my children and food preparation, I was lying down and listening to the sermon series and worship songs. And in the afternoon intercessory prayer call, I didn’t hide my feelings to the ladies who joined the call to pray. I cried like a baby. When my mom called later I cried again. I think that really shocked my mom since she’s rarely seen me cry. I didn’t share too much with my mom because I didn’t want to worry her. Her faith and maturity in Christ is still too small. Nevertheless the Lord used this to show my mom that she needs to join a local church to have prayer partners. I’ve been praying for her to do this for many years. Thank you Lord that she’s finally getting this. My mom shared that previous night she dreamt that my chest was being greatly compressed. She attributed to anxiety. She probably should’ve kept that information to herself and used it for prayer. Oh well.

Although the storm was still overwhelming my mind and body in the early evening, I relied upon the vision of Jesus carrying me and just let go. I resolved to tell my husband after dinner and cleanup what’s going on within me, in case he had to take me to the hospital at night. Then suddenly and immediately, in a blink of an eye, the storm…was no more. It happened around 8pm.

There was incredible great calm and peace. I was able to breathe very well. Hard compression on my chest was gone. My son’s illness seem to have turned a great turn. I went to bed with much peace that night.

Having such great faith (I’m being sarcastic) I was holding my breath all day Friday to see if this calmness is here to stay. Praise the Lord it did! Big sigh of relief. My son went to his appointment for the COVID test on Friday afternoon. It was a drive through test and just like TV news, these ladies were suited up well with their whole protection gears. The nurse said we’ll get the results by next mid-week.

Right now it’s early Saturday morning and the sun is coming out, birds are chirping and the calm after the storm is being immensely appreciated by me. Thank you Abba. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Holy Spirit.

Oh one more thing. On Friday morning, I asked Lydia to call me and that I’d really appreciate her prayers again. When she was praying for me, I saw a vision of the footprint poem again. This time Jesus gently put me back on my feet. I told Lydia that I think Jesus wants me to walk on my own today. Another revelation I had about this poem is that we are always moving forward, even when Jesus is carrying us we are always moving forward. Since Friday I started walking forward on my own feet, with Jesus always by my side. 😌 Lydia said the previous night she saw on CNN a 15 year old boy who was positive for COVID and that he too had a bad rash all over his body including his mouth just like my son who is 13.

Lydia said to me on Thursday that sometimes God allows us to go through the storm for other people. As our society comes out of strict quarantine, this coronavirus is still around us. I know that my family was very careful throughout the past seven weeks. My children haven’t been out other than our street for walking and running solo. The only way any virus came in was through our groceries which I wiped in the garage first, or take out foods which we handled with gloves and transferred to our own plates. If indeed we were exposed to Covid-19 then this virus is very contagious. Let’s see what the test result comes back…

Other bible verses that the Holy Spirit gave me on Wednesday:

Romans 8:11 The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as God raised Christ Jesus from the dead, he will give life to your mortal bodies by this same Spirit living within you.
1 Corinthians 7:14 The Voice (VOICE)
14 Here’s the reason: An unbelieving husband is consecrated by that union—touched by the grace of God through his believing wife—and the same is true when the husband is a man of faith and he’s wed to an unbelieving wife. His wife is consecrated through their union. If this weren’t so, your children wouldn’t be pure; but as it is when faith enters in, God sets apart these children to be used uniquely for His purposes.

Liquid church sermon series about the Holy Spirit that carried me through on Thursday. It was so good.

https://liquidchurch.com/messages/wind-fire-series/wind-fire