My puny mind and heart have been tremendously overwhelmed by the news and events in our nation and worldwide. If I’m not careful I’d even lose my hope to pray…so thankful to the Holy Spirit for always leading me to still waters when I lose my mind and peace.

Right now the upcoming November election is causing more polarization and division in our nation, the church and families. Only Satan wins if believers can not disagree with love, unity and respect. Because of my decade experience with learning to live harmoniously with a husband hostile to my faith and love for Jesus Christ; I have learned how to disagree with love and respect. I’ve recognize demonic influences quickly and retreat to prayer and silence because the demons want nothing more than to cause division and hate amongst God-ordained relationships. As a believer of Jesus Christ, I have the divine power through the Holy Spirit to control my mind and mouth, and to forgive quickly my offenders. Nonbelievers do not have access to this supernatural power. They’ll have to draw it out from their own resources and so believers should not expect them to have this supernatural ability. Yet when I see Christians acting and talking like nonbelievers than I wonder if these Christians are saved at all. Jesus talked about the wheat and the tares growing together and in the last days, these two categories will become separated. Perhaps this is what is starting to happen…

I read a very surprising survey yesterday posted in Christian Post magazine. 30% of Evangelical Christians in America do not believe that Jesus Christ is God! They believe He was only an anointed great teacher. Wow I expected more from Evangelicals. O Lord Jesus, forgive our churches in America. We have certainly failed You. It’s no wonder that droves of youth across the generations have left the church. It’s very hard to hope in the midst of this new information.

I know that our nation is also the biggest spenders in sex tourism, and most likely producers and users of resources for the sexual exploitation of children and young people. I know that ever since 1970s once abortion was legalized, our nation has performed over 60 million abortions. And now even late term abortions are trying to become legalized in our country. Biotech businesses are secretly harvesting aborted baby’s organs for research and development. Fully developed and live baby hearts command top dollars for whatever reasons. If full term abortions are legalized then they will have as many live hearts for research and usage.

Lord, please forgive me for being pro-choice for so many years. Only in the last couple of years, you have shown me that life starts at conception not at third trimester. I’m sorry for being so indifferent to the lives in the womb.

I know that all great empires rise and fall throughout history. Is this the time for America to fall into judgement of reaping what we’ve been sowing without true repentance? I know there’s much blood shed in our land from slavery and long time racism.

I read on WSJ recently that America spends nearly $4-5 billion dollars a year on defense spending for South Korea, my birth country. President Trump is causing an uproar because he’s demanding that South Korea spend more to foot the bill. I understand why. South Korea is a very prosperous country now. I think USA has nearly 4 trillion dollars in debt. In essence we are borrowing from countries like China and from our children. I doubt our children and grandchildren will have any money given from their social security accounts when they are old.

I worry what North Korea will do to South Korea with China’s blessings if America falls. There are so many countries in Africa, Middle and South East that are killing and persecuting Christians. If America falls, I’d imagine more Christians will be killed and greatly persecuted in those nations. If judgement comes to America, I’d imagine Evangelical Christians like me will also be persecuted if I don’t bow down to worldly agendas and more of our religious freedom taken away. Well, I had to tip-toe around my household for the last decade with my faith and so I already know how to be more discreet and secretive. But my many Christian friends in America will be in for a rude awakening when they lose their freedom. Nevertheless, they will learn like I have because the supernatural divine power is within them through the Holy Spirit. It’ll be a painful learning process and they will cry a lot like I have especially in the beginning when they get comforted by the Holy Spirit. However, they will become all-in about following Jesus Christ. Perhaps that’s the reason why God is allowing our country to fall apart these days.

Dear Jesus, thank you for leading me. Thank you for your voice and that I do hear from you as your sheep. I’ll continue to lead the women’s prayer groups to intercede for our nation, church and youth. My job is to believe in You and to pray. Please continue to supply me with hope so that I can pray with at least a mustard size faith. Please provide hope to your people in the midst of turmoil. Please have mercy on America. In Jesus’ name I pray amen. 🙏