Here is an update that I sent to few ladies in my life whom I’ve shared honestly and openly about Alex. Although you don’t know me I thank you for following me and praying for me and my family too. I hope one day very soon, I get a green light🚦from the Holy Spirit that I can come out of hiding and show you my smiling photo. 🙂

Hello ladies. Thank you so much for your prayers and encouragements when I was going through the toughest storm in my 11 years of following our Lord Jesus Christ. My faith was tested and tried in many moments of “why, why, and more whys”.

Alex looks like she lost more weight. She still didn’t want to spend much time with us and wasn’t too friendly. Although she didn’t change as much as I’d want, I realize that I changed a lot in the past month. I realize more than ever that I am not my children’s savior. Only Jesus is their Savior. As shared with my prayer group below, somehow through this ordeal, Jesus became more of my life.

I am not sure what is going to happen with Alex. Next time we see her it will be in two months during Thanksgiving break. She only texts with us and does not want to do FaceTime or even phone calls. I used to tell people that I can have 10 Alex’s because she was easy, responsible, respectable and obedient. It all changed dramatically and suddenly during the pandemic.
Please continue to pray for my dear Alex. I know that as God is working in me, He is using this to work on Howard and the rest of my family members too. I will hold onto His promises, goodness and faithfulness. God bless you all, my sisters-in-Christ.

Also, please keep this matter private between us. Perhaps one day (hopefully soon) I will share more openly, but right now too many believers are fearful and faint-hearted. I don’t want to add more burden upon them and that is what the Holy Spirit is advising me as well. Thank you.

Additionally, please keep me in your prayers. The Lord keeps on bringing me deeper into my service at the High School and the works in this community. It is a bit overwhelming and I am going into territories that I have never been before. Thank you for your prayers. With love and gratitude for your prayers and friendship.

Romans 8:28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Christ is our life: While back when I was looking for a new dentist, I visited his business website. As I was reviewing his impressive accomplishments and credentials, I also read his personal information. His one sentence really stuck with me. He wrote that “my wife and children are my life”. Since I know this family well enough from our Jewish synagogue and social get-togethers, I know what a wonderful, big family he has on both sides who all live nearby too. They are always having big family get-togethers, vacationing, supporting one another through tough times, etc. Even if you have a big, excellent, extended family that is strong and ideal; this cannot be your life. It may look like a great and solid foundation, but it is not. Only Jesus Christ is our solid foundation and every other foundation is sinking sand. Please think about what I shared, and I hope and pray that your heart and mind will also agree with Apostle Paul who wrote:
When Christ, who is our life, appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory. – Colossians 3:4 (AMP)

If you are not there yet, no worries. Be honest with God and tell Him that this is not the case in your heart and mind. Ask God to help you to get to this place of conviction and confidence. This was not my case eleven years ago when I embarked on the journey of following Jesus Christ. I am not sure when it happened but somewhere along the way, Jesus Christ became my life. What a sure solid foundation that I rest upon and what a blessing that I am to my children and family members because I can always point them to the right cornerstone foundation whenever they decide to choose Jesus Christ.
This song called “Cornerstone” by Hillsong sings this theme so well. May you be richly touched by this song. https://youtu.be/QvLxZEU02uI