I don’t remember my dreams often but when I wake up remembering my dream vividly, I like to write it down and process it. I’m quite certain this dream is from the Lord since the Bible verse of the day by Biblegateway.com is exactly about this situation.
1 John 2:15-16 (VOICE) – Don’t fall in love with this corrupt world or worship the things it can offer. Those who love its corrupt ways don’t have the Father’s love living within them. All the things the world can offer to you—the allure of pleasure, the passion to have things, and the pompous sense of superiority—do not come from the Father. These are the rotten fruits of this world.
In my dream, I entered a very big mega-church. In Korean churches, it is customary to serve lunch right after service. It is a brilliant idea to get people to have fellowship after church. In my dream, it was lunchtime after church service. It wasn’t a Korean church but an American church with a diverse community and age groups. As I entered the church during lunchtime, I couldn’t help but notice the amazing abundance of foods being offered. It was buffet style but one can use their money for specialty foods and extra services. Church was very crowded and busy.
I saw few people in the church volunteering their services to feed the big crowd. These few volunteers were running around refilling the food stations, trying to satisfy the crowd and their needs. I walked by young people dressed in high fashion, waiting for extra services and looking annoyed at the volunteer who was having trouble figuring out the screen app to place their extra orders.
I also saw good things too. People huddled together for fellowship as they were eating. After nearly two years of the Covid pandemic, where large group gatherings were suspended it was nice to see people gathered together for fellowship in a local church community. Although this church was a very big mega-church.
I also saw something in myself that I need to be mindful and careful about. I was walking around this busy church, and staring at the abundance of foods and people dressed in fine clothes and accessories; as I was staring, I saw these materialistic things entering into my heart through my eyes! This is why the Lord’s Prayer has a line for “lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one.” I better pray for this daily. 🙏
Dear Lord Jesus, please help me to catch myself when I look intently at the world’s pleasures and temporal things, and to look away from these worthless idols in the church community. Let me eat what I need at lunchtime but then go out from the church community to gather in the lost sheep and prodigals. If I stay too long I saw that I will look intently at the temporary things that are in the church community and desire them. Thank you for the heads up about my personal weakness.
Howard has been a bit more guarded towards Christians again…ever since Alex returned back to her old self. I get tired of gauging his guardedness and placing limits on my religious freedom for his sake. Yet after this dream, perhaps it’s for my own good.
Yesterday I heard R.T. Kendall’s message on “Thorn in the flesh”. I smiled and sighed because Howard is my “thorn in the flesh”. I am getting very tired of having my husband be the thorn. Pastor Kendall said our thorn will be there as long as we need it. 😣 Lord Jesus, please consider how weary I’m feeling and remember that I’m just a mortal made of dust, and I pray that you will abundantly bless me with your great anointing, power and encouragement so that I won’t complain or feel sorry for myself. Thank you for your help and power. Still, I’d like to add a prayer wish that one day, Howard will stop being my thorn but that he’ll be my best ally. 🙏❤️
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