Dear Lord Jesus, please forgive me for harboring unforgiveness and bitterness in my heart against Howard. I see deep within myself that I blame him for waiting too long so we are helpless to help Alex now that’s she’s 18. What was in my heart came out last night during our conversation and I am so sorry. I’m not sure how to cleanse my heart; but I know that confession to You is the first step. You commandment is very clear about forgiveness and I desire to do your will. I ask you to help me Jesus because forgiving is a supernatural ability. 🙏

My family is at an all inclusive resort in Mexico for winter break and we are pretty miserable. Howard wanted to come here despite the Omicron COVID. Alex’s binge eating and purging has been horrendous at this vacation. Perhaps it’s worse here since the food is so good and all paid for. Seeing her binge eating and excusing herself to purge is a nightmare.

Wishing you and your family much peace, joy and blessings this Christmas Day! Enjoy these pictures and posts.

I heard this phrase to describe believers who are frozen in their faith including in evangelism, worship, prayers, etc. It is a sad term to describe believers. Yesterday at my church that the Lord had me go back to, this is what I saw in my mind during worship. There was a deep freeze in our congregation with many frozen chosen and yet I saw few people here and there, burning brightly with heat and warmth.

I shared this with my prayer group ladies and I’d like to give you a heads-up too. Please pray for God’s mercy, stay close to the Lord, build up the church community and enlarge our tents to hold more people who may run to the body of Christ for cover in 2022.

Yesterday when I picked up Howard’s prescription, I noticed that his script paper was printed at 4:44! Thank you Lord Jesus for reminding me that you keep your promise. Only you can draw Howard to yourself, not I or anyone else. As my old blog on 444, you’ll be faithful to do it. It is not by might, nor by power; but by your Spirit!

Satan sure knows how to dangle the right bait to drag us away from the Lord. I think for the more mature believers, it’s no longer the obvious temptations like drugs, alcohol, money or sex. I realize recently that for many, including me it is less obvious and more acceptable ones like despair, unbelief, self pity, busyness, etc.