I’ve been searching and seeking for an eating disorder therapist since Alex’s pediatrician visit on Tuesday. The news reports are accurate; eating disorders have skyrocketed in our young people during the pandemic. Alex is placed on two waiting lists and many others haven’t even called me back. This morning she left for college. She was very icy with me and didn’t even say goodbye. It hurts a lot. 💔😢 A praying friend called me and prayed for us. It was so very nice since I had no words to pray with this morning.

An experienced eating disorder therapist that her pediatrician recommended cannot work with Alex because an archaic law only allows people to be treated by therapists licensed in the same state they are residing in. She told me that she doesn’t think sending Alex off to college with her eating disorder at this level will work out well. Howard and I argued about sending her. My old self would’ve fought Howard aggressively to get my way to save Alex. When I saw that I wasn’t convincing him and our conversation was escalating negatively, I retreated and kept quiet to seek God’s word on the matter. Howard believes that keeping Alex home for a semester to get treatment would be worse because she’ll be so very angry at us. I can see that. Alex has so much anger inside. Who knows what she’ll do if her anger reaches even higher.

God’s word is truly a light for our next step. The Bible verse of that day led me to read Ephesians 5 and gave me peace that I am in the will of God scripturally. – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians%205&version=VOICE

I told Alex that unlike the fall semester, I’ll be in touch with her frequently. I’ve told her the difficulties of finding a therapist. We’ve shared with her the physical dangers of her eating disorder. She angrily told us that she already knew all these things. Yet she still does them. She is ill.

I’m reminded of pastor Gary Hamrick’s sermon about the three types of lost people, teaching from Jesus’ parable in Luke 15. Alex is the prodigal child currently and scripturally we as parents need to let her go. Therefore our decision is in the will of God scripturally. https://cornerstonechapel.net/teaching/20211212/

I don’t know what is going to happen to Alex and I am scared. I will lean upon Jesus Christ and pray and fast even more for my faith and my family.

Joining a Facebook group for struggling/recovering EDs and parents with ED children has opened my eyes to the suffering of so many families and young people. It made me think that we as the body of Christ have become like the fig tree without figs. Jesus cursed that fig tree and it withered away quickly.

Dear Lord Jesus, please have mercy on your church and save us. May we bear good fruit when you come over to us. Perhaps this worldwide pandemic is your pruning of the body of Christ, the church worldwide.

I’ve always thought that the prodigal son parable is only about those who are saved and have wandered away. I realize that it is also for my Alex too. I’ll be using this MIP prayer sheet for the prodigals when I’m praying for Alex. https://momsinprayer.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/04/pdfPrayingScripturallyforProdigals.pdf

As for the SyroPhoenician woman’s story from the Bible; will this still by my story? I don’t know. Once my emotions settle down, I’ll be praying and seeking for God’s word of knowledge. Holy Spirit, please comfort and help me. I am too broken, sad and hurting right now. Thank you for your word.

My Bible verse collection for the year is already starting off fast and furious!

Bible verses 2022
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 – Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

2 Chronicles 16:9 – For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him.

Deuteronomy 33:26-29 – There is no one like the God of Jeshurun,
Who rides the heavens to help you,
And in His excellency on the clouds.
27 The eternal God is your refuge,
And underneath are the everlasting arms;
He will thrust out the enemy from before you,
And will say, ‘Destroy!’
28 Then Israel shall dwell in safety,
The fountain of Jacob alone,
In a land of grain and new wine;
His heavens shall also drop dew.
29 Happy are you, O Israel!
Who is like you, a people saved by the Lord,
The shield of your help
And the sword of your majesty!
Your enemies shall submit to you,
And you shall tread down their high places.”

Isaiah 59:19 – So shall they fear
The name of the Lord from the west,
And His glory from the rising of the sun;
When the enemy comes in like a flood,
The Spirit of the Lord will lift up a standard against him.

No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment you shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is from me,’ says the Lord – Isaiah 54:17

For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also abounds through Christ. – 2 Corinthians 1:5, NKJV

Posted on Facebook 1/8/2017 ❤️ Sent today as a memory by Facebook. Thank you, Holy Spirit ❤️
WITHOUT prompting, ask your child these questions and write EXACTLY what they say about you:
*What is something I say a lot? Alex – Trust in Jesus; Evan – Worship God
*What makes me happy? Alex – jewelry; Evan – Bible
*What makes me sad?Alex – when no one listens to you; Evan – when you run out of charity money
*How tall am I?Alex – 5’4″; Evan – 5’3″
*What’s my favorite thing to do?Alex – nap or pray; Evan – read the Bible
*What is my favorite food? Alex – Korean beef; Evan – sushi
*What is my favorite drink?Alex – sparking water; Evan – wine
*If I could go anywhere, where would I go? Alex – South Korea; Evan – Heaven
*Do you think you could live without me? Alex – probably not; Evan – nope, I need you until 15
*How do I annoy you? Alex – nagging; Evan – talking
*What is my favorite TV show? Alex and Evan – Joel Osteen *What is my favorite music to listen to? Alex and Evan – religious
*What is my job? Alex – keeping the house; Evan – cleaning our clothing
*What’s my favorite color? Alex – purple; Evan – white
*How much do you love me? Alex – five out of five stars; Evan – from scale of one to ten, a six
Copy, paste and change my answers and see what your child says!
You will be surprised how much your kids pay attention to you!
This was a fun exercise! 🙂 Thanks for sharing Facebook friends!