This is a recent email message that I shared with my prayer group ladies. Carrie is a friend from church with Huntington disease. We just visited her and I am so astonished how much she has deteriorated during the last two years of the pandemic. I am challenged again to seek out the ins-and-outs of healing and miracles. It’s a topic that I’ve put on the shelf because of my frustrations and unbelief. Dear Lord Jesus, I repent of my unbelief and lack of love for others’ sufferings. Please have mercy upon me and help your children especially in the western church to believe and ask with faith, hope and love.
1. Attached is a good booklet about the armor of God that is described in Ephesians 6. Yes we are in a battlefield everyday and so it’s imperative that you understand how to fight and to stand your ground. When I returned back to God 12 years ago, I knew that I was declaring to the dark principalities in the air that I was enlisting back into the army of God. My plan to be in-cognito for the remainder of my life was not happening ever since I had the “burning bush” encounter at a local Target store.
As soon as I started to follow Jesus again and stepped back into church community, the spiritual attacks came immediately. When spiritual attacks happen, you have two choices – go deeper into God for training on how to defend yourself and learn to fight, OR make truce with the enemy and surrender all your weapons and be subjugated to him again. Before you decide to surrender, please consider your family especially the children, grandchildren, nieces and nephews. They will also go into captivity with you since they are modeling you, even if you think they are not watching
(I never told anyone about this but at that time, I had the most difficult time looking at faces and even my reflection in the mirror because the faces would transform into demonic faces. I barely looked at people’s faces in the church for fear of me screaming with terror. I am not sure when it stopped but it did eventually in a couple of months or so, as I cried out to God daily for safety, protection and my sanity! My experience reminded me of Tom Cruise’s 90s movie, “The Firm” where his wife was going crazy because of the evil law firm that Tom Cruise was hired by. She looked up at one lady of the firm trying to help her and her sweet face became demonic. Yep, she screamed and acted all crazy. That was exactly what I tried not to do and by the grace and power of God, I did not scream. Whew. )
Back in those early days, whenever the enemy would come to harass me with scary manifestations and intense moments of confusion, distress and great fear; I’d whip out my collection of bible verses and start meditating and praying these bible verses. You’ll need to plan ahead with these bible verses and gather them during quiet times. I used to write them by hand in a notebook and carry it with me everywhere. After 15-30 minutes of mediation, the demonic assault would leave me. After a while the enemy assaults stopped. This bible verse notebook is pretty thick and I have handwritten many bible verses in there so you can see how much I was under the enemy’s assault in the first couple of years.
If you are not having much victory during the enemy’s assaults and harassments, please do what I did and start handwriting good and meaningful bible verses in your own notebook. Eventually it became a game of tit-for-tat with the enemy and I would say “oh yea, come out and attack me! I’ll write and study even more!” I noticed that the enemy hated it when I studied the Bible. I found the secret to winning over the nasty bully and I am sharing this easy and simple strategy with you. I’ve attached a few photos of my handwritten bible verses notebook. I was just thinking that one day this would be a great legacy notebook to pass down to my children or grandchildren.
2. Many of you know Carrie. She came to our Wednesday women’s bible study group at PAC. Her family attends Stonehill church. Five years ago she was placed in a nursing home because of Huntington’s disease. People nickname this hereditary illness as the Devil’s disease. It’s a very fitting name when you see so many young people with this disease gathered together at this nursing home.
Pearl and I visited Carrie yesterday. It’s our first visit since the pandemic. She has deteriorated greatly. She lost her ability to talk, walk and lost a lot of weight too. She is strapped into her wheel chair 24/7 now and an aide has to even feed her since she can’t move her arms and hands to feed herself. When she woke up and saw us; her intense, gazing eyes told me that she is fully aware of everything. She woke up finally when we said let’s pray for your daughters, Emma and Hannah. A mother’s love is so intense that we can surface out of a deep, drugged state. Carrie’s mom died in a nursing home with this disease, and now she’s there. Since this disease gets passed down mostly to women, I’m sure her two daughters are living with foreboding fears for their future. We don’t know what God wants to do with Carrie. Please pray for her. As I’m praying for her this morning all I can say to God is, “Lord, this does not bring You any glory.”
If you need healing, this is the only church in our area that I am aware of who has trained staff and congregants to pray for healing. Just like you go to a specialized hospital for their highly trained staff, you must also go to a church who has demonstrated healing and miracles. Unfortunately, Stonehill and my church PAC, we are not there yet. Also, you have to go more than once for prayer. Would you just go once for chemotherapy treatment for cancer? No. From what I’ve heard, chemotherapy is about ten sessions and sometimes followed by radiation sessions too. https://crossingumc.org/healing/
“Humbled and Healed” is a nice short devotional about the importance of humbling ourselves before the Lord.
Sid Roth’s ministry can be used to build up your faith for healing and miracles. His archive of newsletters, interviews and testimonials will build up your faith. I think I need to go back to listening to his guests again since I have become jaded and hardened about healing and miracles. I don’t like this unbelief that’s developed. I’m going to repent, and ask God to help me to have a tender and child-like faith again.
That’s it for today. Happy studying and praying. With love and prayers from your librarian.
A friend in our prayer group just shared this Healing Room ministry with me after my email message. Wow this message by an old time preacher and evangelist is powerful. I’ve never heard of him before. I’ll have to look into him more later.
I love this portion from his message: “Do you know what prayer is? It is not begging God for this and that. The first thing we have to do is to get you beggars to quit begging, until a little faith moves in your soul. Prayer is God’s divine generator. The spirit of man is God’s divine dynamo. When you go to pray, your spirit gets into motion. Not ten thousand revolutions per minute, but possibly one hundred thousand. The voltage of heaven comes to your heart, and it flows from your hands, it burns into the souls of men, and God almighty’s Spirit is applied through you to their need.” – John G. Lake – To read the entire message, here it is – https://healingrooms.com/about/johnGLake/?document=160
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