Ever since my activism began in March with a big let down at the end, I have been deeply grieved. It also didn’t help that my daughter came home from college and she has been retreating back to her former ways of being reclusive, rude and showing destructive eating habits. Moreover, the PTO board president was very difficult with me as I was trying to end my school events for the year. If it wasn’t for my sense of duty and responsibility to the students and school, I probably would have quit my volunteering services midstream. Thank goodness the school year is over and I did all my events well. However, I thought and prayed about it and I told the other new co-president that I’m not returning back in the new academic year. I was going to return for another year just to bless the students and staff; and to find new parent replacements for all the events that I handle. But after all that I went through with her, I felt permission and release from the Lord to let it go. I’m relieved.

My two children, ages 20 and 16 can be rude and disrespectful to me, being immature and worldly-influenced. Yet I need to forgive and respond in love in order to make our relationship work. I don’t want them to respond to me with fear and resentment. My husband gets more needy and requires more attention from me when my daughter gets aloof and disorderly in her behaviors. Then I get resentful at him because I feel like I have nothing more to give since I’m also more negative and needy. I was getting depressed and frazzled about all these things, and other ministry disappointments including the specific requests lifted up at so, so many prayer meetings that went nowhere. Anyway I was depressed and because I was hungry, tired and thirty spiritually, I heard his message twice so I could receive his prayers twice too. This morning when I woke up I heard in my spirit loudly (ugh I should have written it down as soon as I came downstairs. But it’s something like this) “Prayer is the key. Keep praying.”

Here is the powerful message and prayer that I received yesterday from this pastor guest in the Sid Roth show. Please listen with an open mind and heart. What do you have to loose? I received hope and strength. Discouragement and unbelief came off. Praise the Lord Jesus! – https://sidroth.org/television/tv-archives/dr-francis-myles-5/?src=hp-slider

Mainly Pentecostal believers say that we should proclaim and pray the bible promises. I have always been cautious about this mainly to hedge my expectations and hopes. Remember I left the faith in my mid-20s because of lack of hope and disappointments. I think I developed a poor method of ensuring that I don’t walk away again by exceedingly lowering my expectations and hopes. Sure it works but it doesn’t proclaim to the unbelieving world that our Jesus is alive and that he rules on the throne from heaven!

I am going to start proclaiming more bible promises into my life and situations, starting with this one about my children – “Her children rise up and call her blessed;” – Proverbs 31:28a

Holy Spirit, thank you for renewing my faith and strength yesterday. I sure needed it. Today’s bible verse of the day in biblegateway.com is “But those who trust in the Eternal One will regain their strength. They will soar on wings as eagles. They will run—never winded, never weary. They will walk—never tired, never faint.” Isaiah 40:31 (VOICE)