Here is an update that I sent to few ladies in my life whom I’ve shared honestly and openly about Alex. Although you don’t know me I thank you for following me and praying for me and my family too. I hope one day very soon, I get a green light🚦from the Holy Spirit that I can come out of hiding and show you my smiling photo. 🙂

This song by Don Meon keeps on coming up in my mind lately. – https://youtu.be/0H2PxM4LmnM

This coming Friday and Saturday, we will be traveling to Indiana University to visit Alex for parent weekend. I bought our airline tickets early summer when I heard that this weekend is super busy and warned by the IU parent Facebook group to book everything early.

I have been very heartbroken 💔 about the events at Afghanistan. Especially as a former feminist, I know that the women in Afghanistan will suffer immediately and immeasurably by the Taliban. Christian homes, collaborators with the US and allies are already being targeted and massacred. Generally, the parents and elderly are killed, and their young people will be taken as slaves. As I was seeking the Lord on how to pray for the Christian teenagers in Afghanistan, the Holy Spirit brought to my attention the Bible studies I did on the books of Daniel and Esther. They were Jewish teenagers when taken captive to serve very brutal and powerful empires and kings. I will be praying for the Afghan youth with biblical wisdom in this academic year.

This is a picture that we have on our bedroom wall to remind us of our road-trip to Italy’s Tuscany region. There were many sunflower farms there, along with plenty of grape vineyards for wine.

Why am I suddenly so interested in sunflowers? Because of this sunflower prophecy that Sid Roth shared recently. I know it’s important to test prophecies. I’m far from knowing how to do this well but I am desperate for a revival in our churches, country and the world. Prior to the pandemic, I prayed for a revival often enough; but now I am praying for a revival daily. This is our only hope. There is no other option.

I did a Bible study on the book of Zachariah recently and the name Zechariah means “God remembers.” A church friend, Teresa whom I’ve lost touch with when her husband went overseas for work; I recently ran into her and her family at a local church that I was visiting. Her family came back to NJ and was now attending this church. She was pregnant with her fourth son and told me that they will name him Zechariah. This made me cry because in my very difficult season with my daughter, I was being reassured that “God remembers”. God remembers my obedience to His voice to stay in my marriage, my services to His church and people, my submission to His will and ways.

Dear Lord Jesus, I wish I can see you and feel your presence in greater measure in another great storm. I think in all the storms of this year and half, this is by far the greatest one for me and my family. Your words in the Bible brings me relief but I really need you more. So I cry out S.O.S. this morning. I wonder what this really means, I’ve seen it in cartoons. Lol. But this is exactly how I feel right now, sending my daughter off to college soon without resolving her eating disorder and mental health issues.

Whether I like it or not, I have a very quick perception about the mood of an environment or about a person. The Korean word for this is “눈치” and I have a fast one. I’d wish my 눈치 was less sensitive and then I’d be a happier and more carefree person.

Since my teen years, my mom would dump her frustrations, griefs and tears at me. It started when we moved back to America from South Korea as education refugees. I was in 7th grade. My sister wasn’t capable of the educational rigors and her teachers told my parents that she won’t pass the exam to get into high school and advised them to go back to America.

When Billy Graham passed away in 2019, I only heard about him as a famous evangelist but never heard his messages. Once his classic sermons became available on Sirius XM radio, I listened to them all the time in my car. His sermons burned within my heart as I’d imagine the two followers’ hearts did when Jesus appeared by them on the road to Emmaus, days after he was resurrected. https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke+24%3A13-33&version=NIV

I just finished reading this book. It’s my first end times book that I have read. This subject matter always overwhelmed me and so I stayed away from it. Whether his conclusions are completely or partially correct, I think it’s good to wrestle through this topic biblically with the guidance of the Holy Spirit.