I’m reading an autobiography of a women who had an eating disorder for a long time. Her book is called “Brain Over Binge”. After many years of getting therapy and treatment without any improvement; suddenly one chance reading of a book meant for alcohol/drug addiction freed her completely. It is really remarkable how it happened. Her story brought to memory my similar experiences in finding freedom from the terrible voices in my head. Both of us stopped the voices from ruining our lives and we both did it without another human support and without God’s direct intervention.

After a week of knocking on doors and seeking help for A at a frantic pace, now I feel led to let her go again. Upon all my reading and hearing from experts on eating disorders, I believed I needed to be in close communication and supervision of A. However after few heated debates and arguments with H, I see that it is best to give her space and independence, especially since the student health center is moving so quickly with her evaluation for treatment.

I am doing much better now. The prayers of many good friends, God’s word and my daily discipline of spending time in prayer and reading God’s word have kept me in the will of God and sustained my faith in this great storm. Jesus wasn’t surprised by this testing of my faith since a very seasoned believer came into my life right before the winter break to help me tremendously.

I’ve been searching and seeking for an eating disorder therapist since A’s pediatrician visit on Tuesday. The news reports are accurate; eating disorders have skyrocketed in our young people during the pandemic. A is placed on two waiting lists and many others haven’t even called me back. This morning she left for college. She was very icy with me and didn’t even say goodbye. It hurts a lot. 💔😢 A praying friend called me and prayed for us. It was so very nice since I had no words to pray with this morning.

2 Chronicles 16:9 – For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him.

As we are dealing with Alex and her eating disorder, it’s been very difficult for us. I feel like walking through a field of land mines everyday. I am learning more to walk in the sensitivity of the Holy Spirit so that I don’t step on a land mine. I make mistakes and step on a land mine but by the grace and power of Christ, I recover and walk through the field again.

Dear Lord Jesus, please forgive me for harboring unforgiveness and bitterness in my heart against my husband. I see deep within myself that I blame him for waiting too long so we are helpless to help A now that’s she’s 18. What was in my heart came out last night during our conversation and I am so sorry. I’m not sure how to cleanse my heart; but I know that confession to You is the first step. You commandment is very clear about forgiveness and I desire to do your will. I ask you to help me Jesus because forgiving is a supernatural ability. 🙏

My family is at an all inclusive resort in Mexico for winter break and we are pretty miserable. H wanted to come here despite the Omicron COVID. A’s binge eating and purging has been horrendous at this vacation. Perhaps it’s worse here since the food is so good and all paid for. Seeing her binge eating and excusing herself to purge is a nightmare.

Wishing you and your family much peace, joy and blessings this Christmas Day! Enjoy these pictures and posts.

I heard this phrase to describe believers who are frozen in their faith including in evangelism, worship, prayers, etc. It is a sad term to describe believers. Yesterday at my church that the Lord had me go back to, this is what I saw in my mind during worship. There was a deep freeze in our congregation with many frozen chosen and yet I saw few people here and there, burning brightly with heat and warmth.