I don’t really know how the Holy Spirit does this but every time I feel like I can’t do this anymore, my inner battery gets recharged. I am reminded of the Energizer Bunny…I’m still going!

Dealing with Alex’s ED is like a roller coaster ride. You never know when the deep dips and heart wrenching turns are coming. Just yesterday going to church, I “willed” myself to go, to worship wholeheartedly and to pay attention to the sermon. It was a good message by pastor Alex about finances, love of money and having no other gods before God, referencing to the Ten Commandments.

When he was preaching I heard within that for many parents that our children become an “idol god” before God. Yes, I can see that happening. Perhaps that’s why they turn “unlovable” and challenging during the teen years. I realize that even our obsessive worrying about our children in distress can morph into a bitter idol.

As I released my daughter to the Lord…yet again; I saw the Holy Spirit just encouraging me yesterday and today. My church friend saw Alex at her workplace and chatted with her for a long time. She told me how bright and talkative Alex was. What?! Anyway, it filled up my battery. 🙂

I am turning 50 this week. (Retirement to heaven in 30-40 years!) I didn’t want to have a party. But every time I’d pray in April, I felt the Lord telling me to throw a party for my birthday. After dragging my feet on it for a few days, I obeyed and told Howard “let’s throw a low-key get together at the house.” It’s been nice to see Howard and Alex working together without me to plan this house party. It’s an activity that God is using to bond their relationship and to share when they drive together on errands. I’m so happy that I listened and obeyed.

Energizer Bunny analogy reminds me of this Bible verse about God – “For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him.” – 2 Chronicles 16:9a

God is definitely faithful to fill my battery level up when it’s going low or near dead level. We do need to listen, be attentive and obey too.

Excellent sermon “Faithfulness through Fatigue”-https://youtu.be/woRovLX4H9w

Speaking about the Ten Commandments, I found these fun pictures in Pinterest. I hope they help me to finally remember the list. – https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Exodus%2020&version=ESV